Finding my way

Trying to face reality while turning my back
I was scared that the world would see the things I lacked
Turmoil burning inside me I decided to stand still
Maybe the fire wouldn't burn me if i did nothing until
I woke up eyes lightly veiled
I saw my future up for sale
I chose a direction unpopular for some
But it was the direction of that which created the sun
I finally saw the circumstances as they were
I was scared, afraid and everything was a blur
I gave my courage up for truth no matter who concurred
That it might be the best thing for my soul
That God would protect me, no matter the hole
I have dug up for my self,
I put my life on a shelf
In order to be the person i wanted to be admired
I stopped my destructive cycle,and put my vices up on a pyre
Chose the path designed for me
Was showered with blessings beyond seas
Never will I ever doubt for a minute patience and gratitude
Worked for me, God made for me a life of servitude
Not to my urges, not to my vanities, but to the Almighty
Truly the Most Merciful has shown me the most generosity
And I fight and pray
To keep the whispers of Satan at bay
And help me oh Allah never to fall into dispair
Verily, doing so would make me forget to Care.
Amin!