Betrayed

I can't cry anymore because I'm afraid
That my tears will burn like acid rain
My body has betrayed me
It has turned against me
Waged Mutiny
My own cells producing what will seize
And eventually Kill me
The doctors says if I have a mastectomy
If i cut my breast there is a chance
I will see life's promise again
What if I let the knife seperate me
from my claim to the past
Parts of my anatomy
the wrikles and dimples
what if I let go of them and i still die?
My breasts that have fed my two children
My breast that seduced my husband
My life line has been preemtivly cut
These mountains of doom
The soft dunes that have ached with milk
That wouldn't allow me to fit in every shirt
But I still love them
When my husband undresses me
Will his eyes still be filled with lust?
Or will he only see the shadow
Of the woman I used to be?
Before My body tried to steal away
beats from my heart
Tried to empty my lungs of air
Oh body of mine, what have I done,
That you would want to be rid of me?
Have I taken you to McDonald too much
Haven't I filled your belly with laughter?
Haven't I filled your heart with love?
Your mind with understanding?
Why would you seek vengeance
I am going to ask my doctor to cut me
To separate my breasts and me
So I can give a little hope to my daughters
pray that it will allow more time with me
To offer the world a little bit
Before my last breath is gone
My words a distant memories
and my life remembered on a tombstone